Writing my story...

I am a senior in college. In less than a year I will be entering the real world as a college grad. Sometimes this still catches me off guard. Graduating from college is such a big accomplish and will be such a pivotal moment in my life. It seems like the ever present question that people have been asking me lately has been, "So... What are your plans for after college?"

Honestly, this question frustrates me and makes me anxious because I don't know what exactly I will be doing after college. I don't have a perfect road map laid out for me with dates and things for me to accomplish. Instead I have a good idea of what I would like to do and a lot faith in the Lord that he will lead me to do His will. I can see myself doing many great things and sometimes it's hard to narrow it down into a maintainable and reachable vision. I will be graduating with a degree in Special Education so I can definitely see myself doing something with that. My heart is also pulling me to do international missions to help empower women and girls through education. There are so many options and opportunities that lie in front of me that it is hard to know exactly which path I should go down and pursue. How do I know I made the right choice? What if I was meant to do something completely different and I missed that opportunity? 


When the uncertainty and pressure of the future weighs heavy on me all I can do is trust that in time I will know what I am supposed to do. There's a song that has spoken to me recently. It says the following:

"I'm an empty page

I'm an open book

Write Your story on my heart

Come on and make Your mark

Author of my hope

Maker of the stars

Let me be Your work of art

Won't You write Your story on my heart"

- Francesca Battistelli 

I couldn't agree more with these lyrics. At this point in my life (and always) I will be an empty page of an open book, just waiting for me to leave my mark on the world. As much as I worry about what the future holds for me, I have no doubt that it will be really freaking awesome. I am going to make several mistakes, but will most definitely learn from them to make me a stronger person in the long run. My life will have its ups, downs, twists and turns for sure. This is just the beginning of me writing my story... I don't have to have all the answers to the questions that roam around in my head. I just have to be open to living life and whatever comes my way. Let the next chapter of my life begin with no regrets.